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Sometimes, you’re just here for pretty pictures, right?

It’s been a long week. It’s been a long month, a long semester, a long year. To drop the mask of authorship for a moment, I’m tired. I’ll be going out at least twice more this year with the film camera, though whether or not that film gets developed in 2024 is yet to be seen. So, instead of trying to drag something deep and meaningful out of my dingy washrag soul, here’s some of my favorite pictures from this year.

It’s hard, looking at 2025, to want to set goals. In some ways, it’s a reminder that I must continue to live my life, and that includes things like “explore the possibility of film sponsorship” and “submit to [x] number of juried calls” and “actually step out of your comfort zone and shoot portraits.” In others, I look at what I have to achieve in my non-creative life (a promotion that will allow me to move, development in an area I never thought I would), and the rest of the world, and wonder “what’s the point?”

That’s the point, though. The point is to keep creating, to keep striving, to keep putting one dang foot in front of the other. The point is that if putting film into a camera makes me a little more whole as a person, that has value - if picking up my digital camera and seeing what the day holds gives me a bit of joy, that itself is worth it.

Anyway - thanks for being here! If you subscribe, thanks for hanging out - if you’ve just checked this out because I’ve linked it on BlueSky enough times, I cannot thank you enough for scrolling this far. I want to keep this going, keep challenging myself to return to the well of creativity that I’ve thought was dry for so long - it’s hard, though, to make Jack and Jill’s walk up that hill without knowing that someone will be at the bottom to share in the pail of water, should it arrive intact.

Up next: Likely, planes, unless I decide to pay the money to get my night-shoot film developed sooner.